I’ve always taken pride in not letting people down. I reply to WhatsApp messages and emails as quickly as I can. I get my work completed on time and at a high standard. I follow up in areas I need
But I’ve reached a point where I am unable to keep up that level of perfection. I’ve got too much going on, and juggling it has been quite difficult.
There are emails from students from earlier this week that I haven’t been able to get to (and I usually reply in 24 hours). One of my consulting projects has missed a few of its deadlines. And I haven’t been able to sort out a bunch of admin that I had promised to do in various areas.
My natural reaction to this is anxiety and guilt. I’ve let people down.
But in reality, there are two potential scenarios. Either the people are not concerned, and therefore I shouldn’t stress. Or they are concerned/upset, which I don’t really have control over. And I can give it my best, but beyond that they’re going to have to deal with a bit of frustration.
This point may seem rather negative. But in fact, I’ve been thinking about this all day and realized it’s rather liberating.
I’ll give my best in every way I can. But if i can’t, it’s okay.
Image is of some Bonsmara cattle I saw on the way home today. This beef project needs to end soon.
Blog post: 109/365
Song of the day: Axwell^Ingrosso – Dreamer
I applaude you at coming to this realization. There is something you said a few blog posts ago (I think) or maybe in conversation, about giving yourself a longer lead time and that way if you finish or respond sooner it works in your favor, but allows for unforeseen delays. Working hard, requires that you play/rest even harder. Wishing you well in finding the balance. đŸ˜‰