After months of therapy and introspection, I’ve begun to realize how many of my past decisions and actions weren’t a reflection of who I am or what I want from life. I made certain decisions based on family influences, peer pressure or skewed perceptions of the world. And many of my decisions were made out of fear.

Some examples of these include:

• Studying accounting and finance, despite despising the subjects deeply
• Continuing on to a post graduate in accounting
• Not changing to a PPE when I knew I would enjoy it more
• Being scared to explore and experiment in high school
• Not trusting my instinct enough in my personal life

There are many more examples of this. Times when my decisions weren’t really mine

But I’ve also been learning how to be gentle with that past version of me. Apart from not being able to change anything now, I also didn’t have access to the same thinking and perspective as I do now.

I’ve also since started to steer myself in a direction that suits me better. I get to take on projects I enjoy and do work that I love.

Regret can be painful. But it’s easier to deal with when you forgive your past self

P.s. was too tired to post this yesterday, so it's a little late :)

Image was taken at blockhouse in February 2011 with Mike and John 🙂

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