{"id":876,"date":"2018-05-31T21:37:02","date_gmt":"2018-05-31T21:37:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rowanspazzoli.com\/wp\/?p=876"},"modified":"2018-05-31T21:37:02","modified_gmt":"2018-05-31T21:37:02","slug":"some-thoughts-on-self-sabotage","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rowanspazzoli.com\/wp\/some-thoughts-on-self-sabotage\/","title":{"rendered":"Some thoughts on Self-Sabotage"},"content":{"rendered":"

Looking up pictures of an ex-girlfriend when you know it’s going to hurt.<\/em><\/p>\n

Leaving assignments to the last minute when you know it’ll affect your grade.<\/em><\/p>\n

Not writing up your CV in time to apply for a job that’s perfect for you.<\/em><\/p>\n

Self sabotage<\/strong> is a behaviour that interferes with our own long term goals, ultimately keeping us from achieve them. It’s us getting in our own way.<\/p>\n

Weird hey?<\/p>\n

It’s something that, at face value, makes very little sense. You’re literally stopping yourself from doing what you want to do.<\/p>\n

But if you dig beneath the surface, there are many things that might promote this kind of behaviour. These might include fear of rejection, a low self esteem, impostor syndrome and sometimes just plain old anxiety.<\/p>\n

How can we fix it?<\/h2>\n

In the short-term, it’s difficult to completely correct self-sabotaging behaviour. But some things can help. Firstly, be aware that you’re doing it. Simply recognizing it gives you a good grounding from which to operate. Next, and most importantly, have someone that can pull you out of that behaviour.<\/p>\n

This might be a parent that calls you to make sure you’ve done the thing.<\/p>\n

Or a friend who shouts at you to get your damn CV in.<\/p>\n

Whatever it is, ask someone else to keep you accountable.<\/strong><\/p>\n

In the long term, a proper understanding and treatment of the underlying problem would be necessary. This might involve psychotherapy, psychiatric help or even spending time researching and unpacking it yourself.<\/p>\n

It’s true that sometimes you can be your own worst enemy. But it doesn’t have to stay like that<\/p>\n

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Image is of a fire fighting helicopter in Newlands forest, taken in 2014 \ud83d\ude42<\/em><\/p>\n

Blog<\/strong>: 206\/365<\/p>\n

Song of the day<\/strong>: Jonas Blue – Rise ft Jack & Jack<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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